1991-1993

Never Enough

However much I push it down
It’s never enough
However much I push it around
It’s never enough
However much I make it out
It’s never enough
Never enough
However much I do

However big I ever feel
It’s never enough
Whatever I do to make it real
It’s never enough
In any way I try to speak
It’s never enough
Never enough
However much I try to speak
It’s never enough

However much I’m falling down
It’s never enough
However much I’m falling out
It’s never enough
Whatever smile I smile the most
It’s never enough
Never enough
However I smile
I smile the most

So let me hold it up
Just one more go
Holding it up for just once more
One more time to fill it up
One more time to kill
But whatever I do
It’s never enough
It’s never enough

It’s never enough

Harold And Joe

Nothing ever gets in my way
Nothing ever gets on my mind
Nothing ever makes me stop to think about
Nothing of the kind
Nothing ever loses me sleep
Nothing ever wins my heart
Nothing ever makes me want to sing along
And nothing makes me want to start

If I’m falling down a mountain
Then I pick myself up
If I crash into an iceberg
I don’t give a frightful look around..
If I am burning then I put myself out
I’m so completely full
I scare the world
Oh all the world
All inside out

Just look around…

Nothing ever puts me out
Nothing ever pulls me in
Nothing ever makes me want to jump
And nothing makes me want to begin
Nothing ever gets me down
Nothing ever gets me uptight
And nothing ever makes me run around
And nothing makes me feel I might

If I’m hanging from a peach tree
Then I cut myself down
And if I look into the sun
I just turn up the sound
And if I swallow deathcap loverooms
Then I spit them right out
I’m so completely full
I scare the world
Yeah all the world
Inside out

Nothing ever gets in my way
Nothing ever gets on my mind
Nothing ever makes me stop to think about
Nothing of the kind

Harold and Joe
Go go go!!!
Yeah…
Sing birds sing…

Open

I really don’t know what I’m doing here
I really think I should’ve gone to bed tonight but…
« Just one drink
And there’re some people to meet you
I think that you’ll like them
I have to say we do
And I promise in less than than an hour we will honestly go…
Now why don’t I just get you another
While you just say hello… «

Yeah just say hello…

So I’m clutching it tight
Another glass in my hand
And my mouth and the smiles
Moving up as I stand up
Too close and too wide
And the smiles are too bright
And I breathe in too deep
And my head’s getting light
But the air is getting heavier and it’s closer
And I’m starting to sway
And the hands all on my shoulders don’t have names
And they won’t go away
So here I go
Here I go again…

Falling into strangers
And it’s only just eleven
And I’m staring like a child
Until someone slips me heaven
And I take it on my knees
Just like a thousand times before
And I get transfixed
That fixed
And I’m just looking at the floor
Just looking at the floor
Yeah I look at the floor…

And I’m starting to laugh
Like an animal in pain
And I’ve got blood on my hands
And I’ve got hands in my brain
And the first short retch
Leaves me gasping for more
And I stagger over screaming
On my way to the floor
And I’m back on my back
With the lights and the lies in my eyes
And the colour and the music’s too loud
And my head’s all the wrong size
So here I go
Here I go again…

Yeah I laugh and I jump
And I sing and I laugh
And I dance and I laugh
And I laugh and I laugh
And I can’t seem to think
Where this is
Who I am
Why I’m keeping this going
Keep pouring it out
Keep pouring it down
Keeping it going
Keep pouring it down
And the way the rain comes down hard…
That’s the way I feel inside…

I can’t take it anymore
This it I’ve become
This is it like I get
When my life’s going numb
I just keep moving my mouth
I just keep moving my feet
I say I’m loving you to death
Like I’m losing my breath
And all the smiles that I wear
And all the games that I play
And all the drinks that I mix
And I drink until I’m sick
And all the faces I make
And all the shapes that I throw
And all the people I meet
And all the words that I know
Makes me sick to the heart
Oh I feel so tired…

And the way the rain comes down hard…
That’s how I feel inside…

High

When I see you sky as a kite
As high as I might
I can’t get that high
The how you move
The way you burst the clouds
It makes me want to try

When I see you sticky as lips
As licky as trips
I can’t lick that far
But when you pout
The way you shout out loud
It makes me want to start
And when I see you happy as a girl
That swims in a world of magic show
It makes me bite my fingers through
To think I could’ve let you go

And when I see you
Take the same sweet steps
You used to take
I say I’ll keep on holding you
My arms so tight
I’ll never let you slip away

And when I see you kitten as a cat
Yeah as smitten as that
I can’t get that small
The way you fur
The how you purr
It makes me want to paw you all
And when I see you happy as a girl
That lives in a world of make-believe
It makes me pull my hair all out
To think I could’ve let you leave

And when I see you
Take the same sweet steps
You used to take
I know I’ll keep on holding you
In arms so tight
They’ll never let you go

Apart

He waits for her to understand
But she won’t understand at all
She waits all night for him to call
But he won’t call anymore
He waits to hear her say
« Forgive »
But she just drops her pearl-black eyes
And prays to hear him say
« I love you »
But he tells no more lies

He waits for her to sympathize
But she won’t sympathize at all
She waits all night to feel his kiss
But always wakes alone
He waits to hear her say
« Forget »
But she just hangs her head in pain
And prays to hear him say
« No more
I’ll never leave again »

How did we get this far apart?
We used to be so close together
How did we get this far apart?
I thought this love would last forever

He waits for her to understand
But she won’t understand at all
She waits all night for him to call
But he won’t call
He waits to hear her say
« Forgive »
But she just drops her pearl black eyes
And prays to hear him say
« I love you »
But he tells no more lies

How did we get this far apart?
We used to be so close together
How did we get this far apart?
I thought this love would last forever

From The Edge Of The Deep Green Sea

Every time we do this
I fall for her
Wave after wave after wave
It’s all for her
« I know this can’t be wrong » I say
(And I’ll lie to keep her happy)
« As long as I know that you know
That today I belong right here with you »

Right here with you…

And so we watch the sun come up
From the edge of the deep green sea
And she listens like her head’s on fire
Like she wants to believe in me
So I try
« Put your hands in the sky
Surrender
Remember
We’ll be here forever
And we’ll never say goodbye… «

I’ve never been so
Colourfully-see-through-head before
I’ve never been so
Wonderfully-me-you-want-some-more
And all I want is to keep it like this
You and me alone
A secret kiss
And don’t go home
Don’t go away
Don’t let this end
Please stay…
Not just for today…

« Never never never never never let me go » she says
« Hold me like this for a hundred thousand million days »
But suddenly she slows
And looks down at my breaking face
« Why do you cry?
What did I say? »
« But it’s just rain » I smile
Brushing my tears away…

I wish I could just stop
I know another moment will break my heart
Too many tears
Too many times
Too many years I’ve cried over you

How much more can we use it up?
Drink it dry?
Take this drug?
Looking for something forever gone
But something we will always want…

« Why why why are you letting me go » she says
« I feel you pulling back
I feel you changing shape »
And just as I’m breaking free
She hangs herself in front of me
Slips her dress like a flag to the floor
And hands in the sky
Surrenders it all…

I wish I could just stop
I know another moment will break my heart
Too many tears
Too many times
Too many years I’ve cried for you
It’s always the same
Wake up in the rain
Head in pain
Hung in shame
A different name
Same old game
Love in vain
And miles and miles and miles and miles and miles
Away from home again…

Wendy Time

« You look like you could do with a friend » she said
« You look like you could use a hand
Someone to make you smile » she said
« Someone who can understand
Share your trouble
Comfort you
Hold you close
And I can do all of these…
I think you need me here with you »

« You look like you could do with a sister » she said
« You look like you need a girl to call your own… like…
Fabulous! Fabulous!
Call me Fabulous! »
And rubbing her hands so slow
« You stare at me all strange » she said
« Are you hungry for more? »
« I’ve had enough » I said
« Please leave me alone
Please go »

It doesn’t touch me at all
It doesn’t touch me at all

« You know that you could do with a friend » she said
« You know that you could use a word
Like feel or follow or fuck » she said
And laughing away as she turned
« You’re everything but no-one
Like the last man on earth »
« And when I die » I said
I’ll leave you it all »
Door closes…
Leaves me cold

It doesn’t touch me at all
It doesn’t touch me at all

« You really do need a sister » she said
« You really do need a girl to call your own… like…
Wonderful! Wonderful!
Call me Wonderful! »
And running her hands so slow
« You stare at me all strange » she said
« Are you hungry for more? »
« I’ve had enough » I said
« Please leave me alone
Please go…
Please go »

Doing The Unstuck

It’s a perfect day for letting go
For setting fire to bridges
Boats
And other dreary worlds you know
Let’s get happy!
It’s a perfect day for making out
To wake up with a smile
Without a doubt
To burst grin giggle bliss skip jump sing and shout
Let’s get happy!

« But it’s much too late » you say
« For doing this now
We should have done it then »
Well it just goes to show
How wrong you can be
And how you really should know
That it’s never too late
To get up and go…

It’s a perfect day for kiss and swell
For rip-zipping button-popping kiss and well…
There’s loads of other stuff can make you yell
Let’s get happy!
It’s a perfect day for doing the unstuck
For dancing like you can’t hear the beat
And you don’t give a further thought
To things like feet
Let’s get happy!

Kick out the gloom
Kick out the blues
Tear out the pages with all the bad news
Pull down the mirrors and pull down the walls
Tear up the stairs and tear up the floors
Oh just burn down the house!
Burn down the street!
Turn everything red and the beat is complete
With the sound of your world
Going up in the fire
It’s a perfect day to throw back your head
And kiss it all goodbye!

It’s a perfect day for getting wild
Forgetting all your worries
Life
And everything that makes you cry
Let’s get happy!
It’s a perfect day for dreams come true
For thinking big
And doing anything you want to do
Let’s get happy!

Kick out the gloom
Kick out the blues
Tear out the pages with all the bad news
Pull down the mirrors and pull down the walls
Tear up the stairs and tear up the floors
Oh just burn down the house!
Burn down the street!
Turn everything red and the dream is complete
With the sound of your world
Going up in the fire
It’s a perfect day to throw back your head
And kiss it all goodbye!

Friday I’m In Love

I don’t care if Monday’s blue
Tuesday’s grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don’t care about you
It’s Friday I’m in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn’t even start
It’s Friday I’m in love

Saturday wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitate…

I don’t care if Mondays black
Tuesday Wednesday heart attack
Thursday never looking back
It’s Friday I’m in love

Monday you can hold your head
Tuesday Wednesday stay in bed
Or Thursday watch the walls instead
It’s Friday I’m in love

Saturday wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitate…

Dressed up to the eyes
It’s a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It’s such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It’s Friday
I’m in love

Trust

There is no-one left in the world
That I can hold onto
There is really no-one left at all
There is only you
And if you leave me now
You leave all that we were
Undone
There is really no-one left
You are the only one

And still the hardest part for you
To put your trust in me
I love you more than I can say
Why won’t you just believe?

A Letter To Elise

Oh Elise it doesn’t matter what you say
I just can’t stay here every yesterday
Like keep on acting out the same
The way we act out
Every way to smile
Forget
And make-believe we never needed
Any more than this
Any more than this

Oh Elise it doesn’t matter what you do
I know I’ll never really get inside of you
To make your eyes catch fire
The way they should
The way the blue could pull me in
If they only would
If they only would
At least I’d lose this sense of sensing something else
That hides away
From me and you
There’re worlds to part
With aching looks and breaking hearts
And all the prayers your hands can make
Oh I just take as much as you can throw
And then throw it all away
Oh I throw it all away
Like throwing faces at the sky
Like throwing arms round
Yesterday
I stood and stared
Wide-eyed in front of you
And the face I saw looked back
The way I wanted to
But I just can’t hold my tears away
The way you do

Elise believe I never wanted this
I thought this time I’d keep all of my promises
I thought you were the girl I always dreamed about
But I let the dream go
And the promises broke
And the make-believe ran out…

So Elise
It doesn’t matter what you say
I just can’t stay here every yesterday
Like keep on acting out the same
The way we act out
Every way to smile
Forget
And make-believe we never needed
Any more than this
Any more than this

And every time I try to pick it up
Like falling sand
As fast as I pick it up
It runs away through my clutching hands
But there’s nothing else I can really do
There’s nothing else I can really do
There’s nothing else
I can really do
At all…

Cut

If only you’d never speak to me
The way that you do
If only you’d never speak like that
It’s like listening to
A breaking heart
A falling sky
Fire go out and friendship die
I wish you felt the way that I still do
The way that I still do

If only you’d never look at me
The way that you do
If only you’d never look like that
When I look at you
I see face like stone
Eyes of ice
Mouth so sweetly telling lies
I wish you felt the way that I still do
The way that I still do
But you don’t
You don’t feel anymore
You don’t care anymore
It’s all gone

If only you’d never pull from me
The way that you do
If only you’d never pull like that
When I’m with you
I feel hopeless hands helplessly
Pulling you back close to me
I wish you felt the way that I still do
The way that I still do

If only you’d ever speak to me
The way you once did
Look at me the way you once did
Pull to me the way you once did
But you don’t
You don’t feel anymore
You don’t care anymore
It’s all gone
It’s all gone

To Wish Impossible Things

Remember how it used to be
When the sun would fill the sky
Remember how we used to feel
Those days would never end
Those days would never end

Remember how it used to be
When the stars would fill the sky
Remember how we used to dream
Those nights would never end
Those nights would never end

It was the sweetness of your skin
It was the hope of all we might have been
That filled me with the hope to wish
Impossible things
To wish impossible things

But now the sun shines cold
And all the sky is grey
The stars are dimmed by clouds and tears
And all I wish
Is gone away
All I wish
Is gone away

All I wish
Is gone away

End

I think I’ve reached that point
Where giving up and going on
Are both the same dead end to me
Are both the same old song

I think I’ve reached that point
Where every wish has come true
And tired disguised oblivion
Is everything I do

Please stop loving me
Please stop loving me
I am none of these things

I think I’ve reached that point
Where all the things you have to say
And hopes for something more from me
Are just games to pass the time away

Please stop loving me
Please stop loving me
I am none of these things

I think I’ve reached that point
Where every word that you write
Of every blood dark sea
And every soul black night
And every dream you dream me in
And every perfect free from sin
And burning eyes
And hearts on fire
Are just the same old song

Please stop loving me
Please stop loving me
I am none of these things
I am none of these things

I am none of these things

This Twilight Garden

I lift my lips from kissing you
To kiss the sky
Cloud soft and blue
And slow the sun melts down
Into your golden words for me

I lift my hands from touching you
To touch the wind that whispers through
This twilight garden
Turns into a world
Where dreams are real

No-one will ever take your place
I am lost in you
No one will ever take your place
So in love with you

I lift my eyes from watching you
To watch the star rise shine onto
Your dreaming face and dreaming smile
You’re dreaming worlds for me

I lift my lips from kissing you
And kiss the sky wide deepest blue
And slow the moon swims up
Into your golden words for me

No one will ever take your place
I am lost in you
No one will ever take your place
So in love with you

Play

Day after day
I let you down
Promise you to change
Then change my mind
And every time I promise you
It will all be fine
It won’t be like this next time

The days you wait
Turn into years
Always wait
Helpless tears
Hopeless nights
And all the fears
It will always be like this

You give me everything you have
Hoping it will someday be enough
To melt my heart
To make me fall in love

Day after day
I let you down
Promise you to change it all
Then change my mind
And every time I promise you
Soon be fine
It won’t be like this next time

But tonight we play I think
The final act
I push too hard
And you crack
Walk away
Don’t look back
This time you’ve really gone

You give me everything you have
Knowing it can never be enough
My heart’s too old
Too hard
Too cold
For your love

Halo

I never felt like this with anyone before
You only have to smile and I’m dizzy
You make the world go round
A thousand times an hour
Just touch my head
And send me spinning

I never felt like this with anyone before
You show me colours and I’m crying
You hold my eyes in yours
And open up the world
I can’t believe all this

I want to keep this feeling
Deep inside of me
I want you always in my heart
You are everything

I never felt like this with anyone before
You fill my head all full of rainbows
And all the rainbows end
Is every step you take
Just to be with you forever

I want to keep this feeling
Deep inside of me
I want you always in my heart
You are everything

Scared As You

You know those things I said
All those things that made you cry
I didn’t really mean that stuff
I didn’t really mean that stuff
All I ever really mean
When I scream and shout the way I do
Is I don’t know
I really don’t
I’m just the same as you

You know those things I said
All those things that made you
Run away from me
I didn’t mean a word
I didn’t really mean I don’t believe
All I ever really mean
When I rant and rave the way I do
Is I’m scared
I’m scared
I’m just as scared as you

And sometimes it’s so hard
Not to just throw it all away
Sometimes it’s so hard
Not to just throw it all away
Like all those things I said
All those things that made you cry
I didn’t really mean that stuff
I didn’t really mean to say goodbye

You know those things I said
All those things that made you
Run away from me
I didn’t mean a word
I didn’t really mean I don’t believe
All I ever really mean
When I scream and shout the way I do
Is I’m scared
I’m scared
I’m just as scared as you

The Big Hand

The big hand makes all of your favourite things
Like all your dreams go small
And all your friends run away
Until your memories fail
And the words don’t fit
But the way the big hand smiles
You just won’t care about it

The big hand makes all of your favourite things
Like all your days run out
And all your hopes disappear
And your smiles just stop
And your eyes go dead
And the shadows start to crawl
In the back of your head

But when the big hand speaks
It’s like fireworks and heaven
So you listen
Don’t think
And wish for nothing at all
And when the big hand sings
It’s like fireworks and friends
Leaving alone I’m not
Leaving alone
Leaving alone I’ll never
Leave alone again

So when the big hand holds up all your favourite things
And with a touch like glass
Starts to squeeze
You don’t ask
« Why me? »
You just slip to the floor
Just slip to your knees

A Foolish Arrangement

Christabel strips
And slips like a dream
Breaking ice with arms that gleam with pain
Disdain…
She throws her head
And glides against the stream
Throwing me her bravest smile
Defiant
Glittering
Shivering guile

« Catching a cold is quick this time
But fish?…
Fish may take a while… «

Christabel dips and slips from me
And hand pushed deep inside is suddenly free
Triumphant
Reluctantly
Struggling six legs held up for me to see

« Don’t be so scared
It’s nothing new
It’s the same old game
Only fun with two… «
But fast and over and over
« I can’t play this game with you »

Everything she tries to tell me
Leaves me open mouthed and still
Foolishly arrange tomorrow
The way I always will

Christabel trips
And grips my hand
But never to be saved…
For a second I understand
and I fall with her…

« I’ll never leave you
Love you
See you change into the man I want
But it’s not for long this thing
It’s not for long… «

Burn

« Don’t look don’t look » the shadows breathe
Whispering me away from you
« Don’t wake at night to watch her sleep
You know that you will always lose
This trembling
Adored
Tousled bird mad girl… «
But every night I burn
But every night I call your name
Every night I burn
Every night I fall again

« Oh don’t talk of love » the shadows purr
Murmuring me away from you
« Don’t talk of worlds that never were
The end is all that’s ever true
There’s nothing you can ever say
Nothing you can ever do… «
Still every night I burn
Every night I scream your name
Every night I burn
Every night the dream’s the same
Every night I burn
Waiting for my only friend
Every night I burn
Waiting for the world to end

« Just paint your face » the shadows smile
Slipping me away from you
« Oh it doesn’t matter how you hide
Find you if we’re wanting to
So slide back down and close your eyes
Sleep a while
You must be tired… «
But every night I burn
Every night I call your name
Every night I burn
Every night I fall again
Every night I burn
Scream the animal scream
Every night I burn
Dream the crow black dream

Dream the crow black dream…