1994-2004

Want

I’m always wanting more
Anything I haven’t got
Everything
I want it all
I just can’t stop
Planning all my days away
But never finding ways to stay
Or ever feel enough today
Tomorrow must be more
Drink more dreams more bed more drugs
More lust more lies more head more love
More fear more fun more pain more flesh
More stars more smiles more fame more sex
But however hard I want
I know deep down inside
I’ll never really get more hope
Or any more time
Any more time
Any more time
Any more time

I want the sky to fall in
I want lightning and thunder
I want blood instead of rain
I want the world to make me wonder
I want to walk on water
Take a trip to the moon
Give me all this and give me it soon
More drink more dreams more drugs
More lust more lies more love
But however hard I want
I know deep down inside
I’ll never really get more hope
Or any more time
Any more time
Any more time
Any more time

Club America

I ride into your town on a big black trojan horse
I’m looking to have some fun
Some kind of trigger-happy intercourse
« Club America salutes you » says the girl on the door
« we accept all major lies
We love any kind of fraud
So go on in and enjoy…
Go on in and enjoy!!! »

I’m buying for my bright new friends
Blue Suzanne’s all round
And my mood is heavily pregnant…
Yeah you’re right
I couldn’t help but notice your icy blue eyes
They’ve been burning two holes in the sides of my head
Since the second I arrived

And it’s not too hard to guess from your stick-on stars
And your canary feather dress
Your hair in such a carefully careless mess
That you’re really trying very hard to impress

You’re such a wonderful person living a fabulous life
Sensational dazzling perfectly sized
Such a wonderful person living a fabulous life
Sharing it with me in Club America tonight…

So we talk for a while about some band you saw on TV
But I don’t listen to you and you don’t listen to me
Yeah it’s an old routine but it’s a very special part of the game
And you don’t really care what I call you at all
When I can’t quite remember your name

And it’s not too hard to guess from your stick-on stars
And your canary feather dress
The way you’re so carefully couldn’t care less
That you’re really trying very hard to impress

You’re such a wonderful person living a fabulous life
Sensational dazzling perfectly sized
Such a wonderful person living a fabulous life
Sharing it with me tonight
Yeah you’re a wonderful person living a fabulous life
Fantastic divine and thrillingly bright
Such a wonderful person living a fabulous lie
With me in Club America tonight…

This Is A Lie

How each of us decides
I’ve never been sure
The part we play
The way we are
How each of us denies any other way in the world
Why each of us must choose
I’ve never understood
One special friend
One true love
Why each of us must lose everyone else in the world

However unsure
However unwise
Day after day play out our lives
However confused
Pretending to know to the end

But this isn’t truth this isn’t right
This isn’t love this isn’t life this isn’t real
This is a lie

How each of us believes
I’ve never really known
In heaven unseen and hell unknown
How each of us dreams to understand anything at all
Why each of us decides
I’ve never been sure
The part we take
The way we are
Why each of us denies every other way in the world

However unsure
However unwise
Day after day play out our lives
However confused
Pretending to know to the end

But this isn’t truth this isn’t right
This isn’t love this isn’t life this isn’t real
This is a lie
This isn’t truth this isn’t right
This isn’t love this isn’t life this isn’t real
This is a lie

The 13th

« everyone feels good in the room » she swings
« two chord cool in the head » she sings
« a-buzz a-buzz a-buzzing like them killer bees… «
Tell me this is not for real
Please tell me this is not for real…

From time to time her eyes get wide
And she’s always got them stuck on me
I’m surprised at how hot honey-coloured and hungry she looks
And I have to turn away to keep from bursting
Yeah I feel that good!

She slips from the stage
A foot no more
But it seems to take an hour for her to reach the floor
And the two chord cool still grooves
As she slides towards me smooth as a snake
I can’t swallow I just start to shake
And I just know this is a big mistake
Yeah but it feels good!

Do it to me! Do it to me! Do it to me! Do it to me!
Do it to me! Do it to me! Do it to me!

« If you want I can take you on another kind of ride… «
« Believe me I would but… «
Deep inside the ‘but’ is ‘please’
I am yearning for another taste
And my shaking is ‘yes’

« you will be all the things in the world you’ve never been
See all the things in the world you’ve never seen
Dream all the things in the world you’ve never dreamed… «
But I think I get a bit confused…
Am I seducing or being seduced?

Oh I know that tomorrow I’ll feel bad
But I really couldn’t care about that
She’s grinning singing spinning me round and round
Smiling as I start to fall
Her face gets big her face gets small
It’s like tonight I’m really not me at all
And it feels good!

Do it to me! Do it to me! Do it to me! Do it to me!
Do it to me! Do it to me! Do it to me!

It feels good!

Strange Attraction

It started with a dedication
« Lost in admiration – happy birthday – I’m forever yours – blossom »
Faded red inside a tiny book of butterflies
I smiled surprised at how when flickered through
The wings flew by spelled out my name…

Six months went by the summer lost
Obsessively the letters dropped into my life
The same soft blood smooth flowing hand
« Please try to understand – I have to see you – have to feel you -
Tell you all the ways I need you – yours forever in love… «

Strange attraction spreads its wings
It varies but the smallest things
You never know how anything will change
Strange attraction spreads its wings
And alters but the smallest things
You never know how anything will fade

The year grew old incessantly she wrote to me
She’d started smoking poetry!
I laughed in recognition of a favourite phrase
She’d pulled me in…
I answered her
A Christmas card in sepia
Arranging when and where
And how the two of us should meet…

Her opening so well prepared
A nervous smile
I couldn’t take my eyes from her
She whispered
« Can I use some of your lipstick? »
It was perfect so believable
I couldn’t help but feel that it was real
And kissing crimson fell into her waiting arms…

So alone into the cold New Year without another word from her
I wrote to ask if we could maybe meet again before the spring
But weeks went by with no reply until once more my birthday came
And with it my surprise but this time nothing was the same…

« I’m sorry – blame infatuation – blame imagination -
I was sure you’d be the one but I was wrong -
It seems reality destroys our dreams – I won’t forget you – blossom »
Faded red inside a tiny book of old goodbyes…

Mint Car

The sun is up
I’m so happy I could scream!
And there’s nowhere else in the world I’d rather be
Than here with you
It’s perfect
It’s all I ever wanted
I almost can’t believe that it’s for real

I really don’t think it gets any better than this
Vanilla smile
And a gorgeous strawberry kiss!
Birds sing we swing
Clouds drift by and everything is like a dream
It’s everything I wished

Never guessed it got this good
Wondered if it ever would
Really didn’t think it could
Do it again?
I know we should!!!

The sun is up
I’m so fizzy I could burst!
You wet through and me headfirst
Into this is perfect
It’s all I ever wanted
Ow! It feels so big it almost hurts!

Never guessed it got this good
Wondered if it ever would
Really didn’t think it could
Do it some more?
I know we should!!!

Say it will always be like this
The two of us together
It will always be like this
Forever and ever and ever…

Never guessed it got this good
Wondered if it ever would
Really didn’t think it could
Do it all the time?
I know that we should!!!

Jupiter Crash

She follows me down to the sound of the sea
Slips to the sand and stares up at me
« Is this how it happens? Is this how it feels?
Is this how a star falls?
Is this how a star falls? »

The night turns as I try to explain
Irresistible attraction and orbital plane
« Or maybe it’s more like a moth to a flame? »
She brushes my face with her smile
« Forget about stars for a while… «
As she melts…

Meanwhile millions of miles away in space
The incoming comet brushes Jupiter’s face
And disappears away with barely a trace…

« Was that it? Was that the Jupiter show?
It kinda wasn’t quite what I’d hoped for you know… «
And pulling away she stands up slow
And round her the night turns
Round her the night turns…

Yeah that was it
That was the Jupiter crash
Drawn too close and gone in a flash
Just a few bruises in the region of the splash…

She left to the sound of the sea
She just drifted away from me
So much for gravity…

Round And Round And Round…

Round and round and round and round and round we go
Trying so hard to get a hold of everyone here
We’ve got to show how much we love them all
We squeak with idiot fake surprise
Flap our hands and flutter our eyes
And lap up all their stupid lies
We’ve got to love them all

And I really don’t know why we do it like this
Imitation smiles and how « it’s wonderful to be here! »
I’m really not sure what we’re so scared we’ll miss

So round and round and round and round and round we go
Hanging on every shape they throw
It’s strange the way we can’t say no
Until we love them all…

So we laugh at every stupid joke
And smoke and choke and point and poke
And gag on countless lines…
How much we love them all!

And I really don’t know why we do it like this
Imitation smiles and how « it’s wonderful to be here! »
I’m really not sure what we’re so scared we’ll miss

Maybe it’s the sex with the drugs and the fools
Or maybe it’s the promise of belief?
Maybe it’s the pleasure and the pain of the cruel
Or maybe it’s the promise of relief?
And I know that we’ve said it so many times before
« Once more and never again »
But however many times that we’ve said it before
Once more is never the end…

Gone!

Oh you know how it is
Wake up feeling blue
And everything that could be wrong is
Including you
Black clouds and rain and pain in your head
And all you want to do is stay in bed

But if you do that you’ll be missing the world
Because it doesn’t stop turning whatever you heard
If you do that you’ll be missing the world
You have to get up get out and get gone!

Yeah you know how it is
Wake up feeling green
Sick as a dog and six times as mean
You don’t want to sing you don’t want to play
You don’t want to swing you don’t want to sway
All you want to do is nothing
On a day like today

But if you do that you’ll be missing the world
Because it doesn’t stop turning whatever you heard
If you do that you’ll be missing the world
You have to get up get out and get gone!
Yeah get up get out and have some fun
You have to get up get out and get gone!
Yeah get up get out and get it on
Get up get out and get gone!
You have to get up get out and get living
Yeah this is really it…

So you know how it is
Wake up feeling grey
Nothing much to think and nothing much to say
Don’t want to talk don’t want to try
Don’t want to think don’t want to know
Who what where when or why…

Oh but you do that and you’re missing the world
Yeah it’s happening right now whatever you heard
You do that and you’re missing the world
You have to get up get out and get gone!
Yeah get up get out and have some fun
You have to get up get out and get gone!
Yeah get up get out and get it on
Get up get out and get gone!
You have to get up get out and get living
Yeah this is really it!

Numb

Yeah this is how it ends
After all these years
Tired of it all
Hopelessly helplessly broken apart
He finally falls
He doesn’t want to think
Doesn’t want to feel
Doesn’t want to know what’s going on
Says there’s nothing he can do will change anything
He doesn’t want to know what’s going wrong
Because he’s in love with a drug
One that makes him numb
One that stops him feeling at all
He’s in love with a drug
Forget everyone
He really doesn’t care anymore
Anymore…

Yeah this is how it ends
After all this time
Everything just fades away
Worn-out and empty and all alone
With nothing left to say
Oh it’s all too big to make a difference
It’s all too wrong to make it right
Yeah everything is too unfair
Everything too much to bear
He doesn’t have the strength left for the fight
Says all he wants is the drug
The one that makes him numb
The one that stops him feeling at all
He just wants to take the drug
Forget everyone
He doesn’t want to care anymore
Just keeps loving the drug
The one that makes him numb
The one that stops him feeling at all
Just keeps loving the drug
The drug that he’s become
He isn’t really here anymore…

And that makes me cry

Return

Oh I really love it here!
Oh you’ve thought of it all!
Candlelight! Coconut ice! And fur on the floor!
And I reeely love the way you wear your hair
And nothing more…
So tell me…
What is going on?
I was sure that I’d already gone…

But all you say is we’re all spinning
It’s really not just me
But that doesn’t seem to help me figure out how I can be
A prisoner in PVC a minute after three…
It didn’t used to be like this
Must be all that sleep I missed…

Yeah but I really love it here!
You’ve done everything to please!
Stolichnaya! Banco de Gaia! Bad timing on TV!
And I reeely love the way you turn
Your smile into striptease…
But I’m still not sure what’s going on
And I can’t help feeling something’s wrong

But you just say that we’re all spinning
And it’s really not just me
But that doesn’t seem to help me figure out how I can be
Still wrapped inside your rubber as I wriggle at your feet…
No it didn’t used to be like this
Must be something strange I kissed…
Maybe when my eyes were closed?

So tell me what is going on?
I’m sure that I’ve already gone…
But all you say is we’re all spinning
And it’s really not just me
But that doesn’t seem to help me figure out how I can be
Still fixed inside your fantasy
A TV refugee…
So tell me what is going on?
Just can’t help feeling something’s wrong…
Or is it right this way I feel?
Someone get me out of here!!!
I’m waiting on my knees…

Trap

Drowning like a fly in my drink
You drone about being on the brink
But I really don’t care what you think
Oh I’m sick of it all
Sick of it all
I hate the way it’s always the same
Hate recrimination and blame
And you just wait for me to fuck up again
Oh I’m sick of it all
Sick of it all

The ways you try and put me down
Sweet revenge for the things I’ve done
The ways you try and twist me around
« Give me a taste of my own medicine »

Drowning like a fly in my drink
You whine about being out of synch
But I really don’t care what you think
Oh I’m sick of it all
Sick of it all

I hate the way you want me to be
Hate regret and humility
And you just wait for me to fall at your feet
Oh I’m sick of it all
Sick of it all

The ways you try and run me down
Make me pay for the things I’ve been
The ways you try and push me around
All you want to do is win

Any love you once felt for me
Has turned into this travesty
Of selfishness and jealousy
So why can’t you just let me go?
Any love you once felt for me
Has turned into this travesty
Of selfishness and jealousy
So why can’t I just let you go?

Treasure

She whispers
« Please remember me
When I am gone from here »
She whispers
« Please remember me
But not with tears…
Remember I was always true
Remember that I always tried
Remember I loved only you
Remember me and smile…
For it’s better to forget
Than to remember me
And cry »

« Remember I was always true
Remember that I always tried
Remember I loved only you
Remember me and smile…
For it’s better to forget
Than to remember me
And cry… «

Bare

If you’ve got something left to say
You’d better say it now
Anything but « stay »
Just say it now
We know we’ve reached the end
We just don’t know how
« Well at least we’ll still be friends »
Yeah one last useless vow…

« There are different ways to live »
Yeah I know that stuff
« Other ways to give »
Yeah all that stuff
But holding onto used to be
Is not enough
Memory’s not life
And it’s not love

We should let it all go
It never stays the same
So why does it hurt me like this
When you say that I’ve changed?
When you say that I’ve aged?
Say I’m afraid…

And all the tears you cry
They’re not tears for me
Regrets about your life
They’re not regrets for me
It never turns out how you want
Why can’t you see?
It all just slips away
It always slips away
Eventually…

So if you’ve got nothing left to say
Just say goodbye
Turn your face away
And say goodbye
You know we’ve reached the end
You just don’t know why
And you know we can’t pretend
After all this time

So just let it all go
Nothing ever stays the same
So why does it hurt me like this
To say that I’ve changed?
To say that I’ve aged?
Say i’m afraid…

But there are long long nights when I lay awake
And I think of what I’ve done
Of how I’ve thrown my sweetest dreams away
And what I’ve really become
And however hard I try
I will always feel regret
However hard I try
I will never forget

I will never forget

It Used To Be Me

All he needs is everyone I’ve been
And all she needs is everywhere I’ve seen
All they need
Anything I’ve touched
And all you need is everything I’ve loved
Everything I’ve heard everything I’ve learned
Everything I’ve tried everything I’ve held
Everything I’ve felt everything I’ve lost
Everything I’ve cried
Until my whole head shrieks with grinding my teeth
Struggling to find a single word I can keep
Any kind of truth
Any kind of hope
Oh just any kind of word that doesn’t make me choke

But I keep saying I will and I won’t
I keep saying I do and I don’t
I keep saying I feel
But there is nothing to feel
Just a strange kind of nothing where it used to be me…
It used to be me

All he needs from me is everyone I’ve ever missed
And all she needs from me
Everyone I’ve ever kissed
All they need from me
Anything I’ve ever sung
Yeah and all you need from me is everything I’ve ever said
Everything I’ve ever done everything I’ve ever made
Everything I’ve ever prayed everything I’ve ever believed
Everything I’ve ever touched everything I’ve ever loved
Everything I’ve ever thought everything I’ve ever dreamed
Until my whole head screams with grinding my teeth
Desperate to find a single word I can keep
Any kind of faith
Any kind of fix
Oh just any kind of word that doesn’t make me sick

And I keep saying I will but I won’t
I keep saying I do but I don’t
And I keep saying I feel
But there is nothing to feel
Just this strange kind of nothing where it used to be me…

Anything and everything
All that you need
Get it for free
Anything and everything
All that you need
Get it from me

Get it from me
Get it from me
Get it from me

Adonais

He breaks the spell still young
Awakes from out this dream of life
And leaves us sleeping
Storm racked blind consumed
By phantom pale displays of grief
He slips from out this shadow land of pain
Where heads grow sorrow grey
And age destroys all hope
And spirits crushed
Lament and hide away

But wordless watch the soft sky smile
And breathless hear the low wind sigh
« What death may join no more let life divide »

« Dream yourself awake » he calls
« Eternity awaits us all
Open your eyes and be with me
Be with me… «

He breaks the chains still young
Dispels the hateful shades of treacherous time
And leaves us sleeping
Tortured mute
Devoured by ghostly shapes of life
He slips from ties of dust
To be the world we dream he lives
A part of everything we feel
The young and beautiful
And brave of heart

But wordless watch the soft sky smile
And breathless hear the low wind sigh
« What death may join no more let life divide »

« Dream yourself awake » he calls
« Eternity awaits us all
Open your eyes and be with me
Be with me… «
« Dream yourself awake » he calls
« Eternity awaits us all
Open your eyes and be with me
Forever… «

Ocean

I don’t think i’m any closer now
Than I was at fifteen
I still don’t know what I really want
Or how I really feel
Sometimes I think I’ve seen too much
Sometimes nothing at all
And sometimes I think I just forgot
What I was looking for

But I still need to believe in you
I still need to know you’ll never
Never give up
I believe in you…
So how can you ever let
My hope turn to despair?
How can you ever stop
Telling me you care?

But I still need to believe in you
I still need to know you’ll never
Never give up
I believe in you…
So how can you ever let
My hope turn to despair?
Tell me you believe it too
Tell me that you care
How can you ever let
My hope turn to despair?
How can you ever stop
Pretending?

Home

Every time I try to tell you how I feel inside
I always make the same mistakes
Tie myself in knots
Sometimes even make you cry
When all I ever want to say
Is nobody else in the whole wide world
Makes me feel this way
Nobody else in the whole wide world
Takes my breath away

Makes me feel so strange inside
Dazed confused and starry-eyed
I couldn’t love you more
Makes me feel the wrong way round
Inside out and upside down
I couldn’t love you more

And every time I try to tell you what I really mean
Nothing seems to come out right
End up murmuring foolishly
It makes me want to scream
How I get so stupefied

There’s nobody else in the whole wide world
Makes me feel this way
There’s nobody else in the whole wide world
Takes my breath away

Makes me feel so strange inside
Open mouthed and mystified
I couldn’t love you more
Makes me feel so upside down
Muddle-headed round and round
I couldn’t love you more
Makes me feel so strange inside
Dazed confused and starry-eyed
I couldn’t love you more
Makes me feel the wrong way round
Inside out and upside down
I couldn’t love you more

A Pink Dream

Rio sunrise sucking on a straw
I rub my head and stagger out the door
And head into the bright new beautiful day
And the way she pulls me in
Sucks my breath away

I asked her for some time
And she just made me it
I asked her maybe why?
And she just gave me it

Never smile
Never stare
She doesn’t seem to care at all
Never cry
Never scream
She doesn’t really seem to need me at all…

Fourteen weeks I stay away from home
A hundred days a part of me unknown
Apart in pink and perfect moments play
And as a wonder of the world
She sucks my breath away

I asked her for some time
And she just made me it
I asked her maybe why?
And she just gave me it
So I asked her could be heaven?
And she just prayed me it…

She didn’t want to know my name
She didn’t want to know how long we had together
Spending time as if tomorrow never comes
I didn’t want to know the end
I didn’t want to go but slowly found me home again
And slow again tomorrow comes

But it was all so far away
And so long ago
I hardly ever think about her anymore
Except sometimes when the summer twilight breeze
Carries me the scent of faraway rain
I remember…
And she still sucks my breath away

Waiting…

Tonight I’ll dream a girl called home
And wake up in tears
All on my own
With the sun coming up
And my head against stone
Balcony dressed and drawn
Tonight I’ll dream a room so far away
Frost pale blue
The colour of a perfect day
And then screw up my face
In the mirror
As I wait for the others to call

But if I don’t believe in magic
And I don’t believe in blood
And I don’t believe in miracles
And I don’t believe in love
Then how come I believe so soon
In a cherry tree girl
And a dust blue room?

Tonight I’ll dream an hour so long
Shadow soft smiles
And everyone loves me
To open my eyes
In a drag myself face undone
Hard back into the world
Tonight I’ll dream a dream I dream
Without even trying i’m flying I scream
As I practice the move
I spit at my pillow stained face
And the others all come

But if I don’t believe in magic
And I don’t believe in blood?
And I don’t believe in miracles
And I don’t believe in love
Then how come I believe it seems
In a girl called home
And a world called dreams?

Dredd Song

Never say it’s over
Never say the end
Anytime you stop just start again
Never say give up
Never say give in
You always have to fight to win

However much it hurts
However much it takes
Believe and all your dreams will all come true
However hard it gets
However much it aches
Always believe in me
As I believe in you

To never say too late
Never say it’s done
Make me know for real you are the one
The one that never turns
Never walks away
The one that I can trust to always stay

Never say surrender
Never say die
You only ever get there if you try
Never say give up
Never say give in
You always have to fight to win

However much it hurts
However much it takes
Believe that all your dreams can all come true
However hard it gets
However much it aches
Always believe in me
As I believe in you

Never say if only
Never say regret
Only the weak remember to forget
Never say it’s over
Never say the end
Never say never again

However much it hurts
However much it takes
Believe and all your dreams will all come true
However hard it gets
However much it aches
Believe in me
As I believe in you

More Than This

For a second of your life
Tell me that it’s true
Waiting for a sign
It’s all I want of you
Your heart hides a secret
« The promise of what is »
…or something more than this?
Just a second of your time
Any one will do
The taste of any ‘other’
Is all I want from you?
Offer me the world
And how can I resist
Something more than this?
Make-believe in magic
Make-believe in dreams
Make-believe in possible
Nothing as it seems
To see touch taste smell hear
But never know if it’s real…
For a second of your life
Tell me if it’s true
Anywhere beyond
It’s all I want of you
On your lips lies a secret
« The promise of a kiss »
…or something more than this?
Just a second of your time
Any one will do
To know of any ‘other’
Is all I want from you
Giving me the world
Know I can’t resist
Something more than this
Make-believe in magic
Make-believe in dreams
Make-believe in possible
Nothings as it seems
And never really understand
What anything means…
Another second of my life
Not knowing if it’s true
Make-believe in nothing
It’s all I want of you
Whisper me the secret
Whisper me…
« There is always something other…
Something more than this »

A Sign From God

(COGASM)

You know I’m sorry if you misunderstood
But your confusion is a bit overdone
I was only in to do it good
I was only in to have some fun
I went out of my way to get this bad
And you still don’t get how far
But now I’m back! I’m new!
And it’s a wonderful thing
But you still don t get how things are…

Not superstition – I’m talking hideous kinky
No not religion – I’m talking serious OOBE
Not science fiction – I’m talking horrible freaky
Yeah all the stuff you don’t believe in
Well that stuff is for real

Got myself a change of life
Got myself a change of style
Got myself a new direction
Got myself a reason why
I just fell right out of my face one day
And I took it as a sign from God
And now I’m feeling good
And I’m moving up
And I’ve got to do it now

Yeah I’m sorry if you misunderstood
But your condition is a touch overplayed
I was only in to do it good
I was only in to get it made
I went way out of my way to get this bad
And you still don’t get how far
And now I’m back! I’m new!
And it’s a wonderful thing
But you still don’t get how things are…

Not superstition – I’m talking hideous kinky
No not religion – I’m talking serious OOBE
Not science fiction – I’m talking horrible freaky
Yeah all the stuff you don’t imagine
Well it s happening to me

Got myself a change of life
Got myself a change of style
Got myself a new direction
Got myself a reason why
I just fell right out of my face one day
And I took it as a sign from God

Wrong Number

Lime green lime green lime green and tangerine
Are the sickly sweet colours
Of the snakes I’m seeing
Lime green lime green and tangerine
Are the sickly sweet colours
Of the devil in my dreams
Lime green lime green lime green and tangerine
Are the sickly sweet colours
Of the snakes I’m seeing
Lime green lime green and tangerine
Are the sickly sweet colours
Of the devil in my dreams
It gets to Friday and I give you a call
« You know I’m getting kind of worried
No she doesn’t t seem herself at all…
Lime green and a sickly kind of orange
I’ve never seen her like this before… «
I had the best laid plans this side of America
Started out in church and finished with angelica
Red and blue soul with a snow white smile
« Can you dig it? »
I had the best laid plans this side of America
Started out in church and finished with angelica
And now I dig it in the dirt and I’m down here for a while…
You’ve got to make up your mind and make it soon
Is there room in your life for one more trip to the moon?
Burn red burn red burn red burn red and gold
Are the deep dark colours
Of the snakes I hold
Burn red burn red burn red and gold
Are the deep dark colours
Of the devil at home
« She pulls me down just as I’m trying to hide
Grabs me by the hair and drags me outside
And starts digging in the dirt…
For a not so early bird it’s the only way for her to get the worm…
« I had the best laid plans this side of America
Started out in church and finished with angelica
Red and blue soul with a snow white smile
« Can you dig it? »
I had the best laid plans this side of America
Started out in church and finished with angelica
And now I dig it in the dirt and I’ll be down here for a while…
« Hello? Hello? Are you still there? »
And much too late…
« Sorry… Wrong number… «

Out Of This World

When we look back at it all as I know we will
You and me, wide eyed
I wonder…
Will we really remember how it feels to be this alive?
And I know we have to go
I realize we only get to stay so long
Always have to go back to real lives
Where we belong
Where we belong
Where we belong
When we think back to all this and I’m sure we will
Me and you, here and now
Will we forget the way it really is
Why it feels like this and how?
And we always have to go I realize
We always have to say goodbye
Always have to go back to real lives
But real lives are the reason why
We want to live another life
We want to feel another time
Another time…
Yeah another time
To feel another time…
When we look back at it all as I know we will
You and me, wide eyed
I wonder…
Will we really remember how it feels to be this alive?
And I know we have to go
I realize we always have to turn away
Always have to go back to real lives
But real lives are why we stay
For another dream
Another day
For another world
Another way
For another way…
One last time before it’s over
One last time before the end
One last time before it’s time to go again…

Watching Me Fall

I’ve been watching me fall for it seems like years
Watching me grow small, I watch me disappear
Slipping out my ordinary world, out my ordinary eyes
Yeah slipping out the ordinary me into someone else’s life
Into someone else’s life…
There’s a thin white cold new moon and the snow is coming down
And the neon bright Tokyo lights flicker through the crowd
I’ve been drifting around for hours and I’m lost and I’m tired
When a whisper in my ear insatiable breathes
« Why don’t you follow me inside?… «
Yeah the room is small, the room is bright
Her hair is black, the bed is white
And the night is always young
Is always young… Always young
The night is always young…
Yeah I’ve been seeing them strip to the bone in the mirror on the wall
Seeing her swallow him whole like it’s not me at all
She holds out her hands and I follow her down to my knees
And the sucking inside insatiable smiles
« You will forget yourself in me… «
Yeah the room is small, the room is bright
Her eyes are black, the bed is white
And the night is always young
And the night goes on and on
And the night is always young
And the night is never over and over and over and over and over…
And then it’s gone
And then it’s gone
Yeah then it’s gone…
Yeah it’s a cruel mean cold new day and outside the snow is still coming down
And in the blood red Tokyo bed I watch me coming round
She pulled him down for hours
Deeper than I’ve ever been
And as I fall in the mirror on the wall
I’m watching me scream
I’m watching me scream
I’m watching me scream
I’m watching me scream
Yeah I’ve been watching me go for it must be years
Watching me get slow, I watch me disappear
And one day, yeah I know, I won’t come back at all…
And always over and over in his ordinary eyes
I’m watching me fall
I’m watching me fall
I’m watching me fall
I’m watching me fall

Where The Birds Always Sing

The world is neither fair nor unfair
The idea is just a way for us to understand
But the world is neither fair nor unfair
So one survives
The others die
And you always want a reason why
But the world is neither just nor unjust
It’s just us trying to feel that there’s some sense in it
No, the world is neither just nor unjust
And though going young
So much undone
Is a tragedy for everyone
It doesn’t speak a plan or any secret thing
No unseen sign or untold truth in anything…
But living on in others, in memories and dreams
Is not enough
You want everything
Another world where the sun always shines
And the birds always sing
Always sing…
The world is neither fair nor unfair
The idea is just a way for us to understand
No the world is neither fair nor unfair
So some survive
And others die
And you always want a reason why
But the world is neither just nor unjust
It’s just us trying to feel that there’s some sense in it
No, the world is neither just nor unjust
And though going young
So much undone
Is a tragedy for everyone
It doesn’t mean there has to be a way of things
No special sense that hidden hands are pulling strings
But living on in others, in memories and dreams
Is not enough
And it never is
You always want so much more than this…
An endless sense of soul and an eternity of love
A sweet mother down below and a just father above
For living on in others, in memories and dreams
Is not enough
You want everything
Another world
Where the birds always sing
Another world
Where the sun always shines
Another world
Where nothing ever dies…

Maybe Someday

No I won’t do it again, I don’t want to pretend
If it can’t be like before I’ve got to let it end
I don’t want what I was, I had a change of head
But maybe someday…
Yeah maybe someday
I’ve got to let it go and leave it gone
Just walk away, stop it going on
Get too scared to jump if I wait too long
But maybe someday…
I’ll see you smile as you call my name
Start to feel, and it feels the same
And I know that maybe someday’s come
Maybe someday’s come…
Again!
So tell me someday’s come tell me some days come again…
No I won’t do it some more, doesn’t make any sense
If it can’t be like it was, I’ve got to let it rest
I don’t want what I did, I had a change of tense
But maybe someday…
I’ll see you smile as you call my name
Start to feel, and it feels the same
And I know that maybe someday’s come
Maybe someday’s come…
If I could do it again maybe just once more
Think I could make it work like I did it before
If I could try it out
If I could just be sure
That maybe someday is the last time
Yeah maybe someday is the end
Oh maybe someday is when it all stops
Or maybe someday always comes again…

The Last Day Of Summer

Nothing I am
Nothing I dream
Nothing is new
Nothing I think or believe in or say
Nothing is true
It used to be so easy
I never even tried
Yeah it used to be so easy…
But the last day of summer
Never felt so cold
The last day of summer
Never felt so old
Never felt so…
All that I have
All that I hold
All that is wrong
All that I feel for or trust in or love
All that is gone
It used to be so easy
I never even tried
Yeah it used to be so easy…
But the last day of summer
Never felt so cold
The last day of summer
Never felt so old
The last day of summer
Never felt so cold
Never felt so…

There Is No If…

Remember the first time I told you I love you -
It was raining hard and you never heard -
You sneezed! And I had to say it over
« I said I love you » I said… You didn’t say a word
Just held your hands to my shining eyes
And I watched as the rain ran through your fingers
Held your hands to my shining eyes and smiled as you kissed me…
« If you die » you said « so do I » you said…
And it starts the day you make the sign
« Tell me I’m forever yours and you’re forever mine
Forever mine… «
« If you die » you said « so do I » you said…
And it starts the day you cross that line
« Swear I will always be yours and you’ll always be mine
You’ll always be mine
Always be mine… «
Remember the last time I told you I love you -
It was warm and safe in our perfect world -
You yawned and I had to say it over
« I said I love you » I said… You didn’t say a word
Just held your hands to your shining eyes
And I watched as the tears ran through your fingers
Held your hands to your shining eyes and cried…
« If you die » you said « so do I » you said…
But it ends the day you see how it is
There is no always forever… Just this…
Just this…
« If you die » you said « so do I » you said
But it ends the day you understand
There is no if… Just and
There is no if… Just and
There is no if…

The Loudest Sound

Side by side in silence
They pass away the day
So comfortable, so habitual…
And so nothing left to say
Nothing left to say
Nothing left to say
Side by side in silence
His thoughts echo round
He looks up at the sky…
She looks down at the ground
Stares down at the ground
Stares down at the ground
Side by side in silence
They wish for different worlds
She dreams him as a boy…
And he loves her as a girl
Loves her as a girl…
And side by side in silence
Without a single word…
It’s the loudest sound
It’s the loudest sound…
It’s the loudest sound I ever heard

39

So the fire is almost out and there’s nothing left to burn
I’ve run right out of thoughts and I’ve run right out of words
As I used them up, I used them up…
Yeah the fire is almost cold and there’s nothing left to burn
I’ve run right out of feeling and I’ve run right out of world
And everything I promised, and everything I tried
Yeah everything I ever did I used to feed the fire
I used to feed the fire
I used to feed the fire
I used to feed the fire
But the fire is almost out is almost out…
And there’s nothing left to burn
No there’s nothing left to burn
Not even this…
And the fire is almost dead and there’s nothing left to burn
I’ve finished everything…
And all the things I promised, and all the things I tried
Yeah all the things I ever dreamed I used to feed the fire
I used to feed the fire
I used to feed the fire
I used to feed the fire
But the fire is almost out…
Half my life I’ve been here
Half my life in flames
Using all I ever had to keep the fire ablaze
To keep the fire ablaze
To keep the fire ablaze
To keep the fire ablaze…
But there’s nothing left to burn
No there’s nothing left to burn
And the fire is almost out
The fire is almost out
Yeah the fire is almost out
Almost out, almost out
Almost out, almost out…
And there’s nothing left to burn

Bloodflowers

« This dream never ends » you said
« This feeling never goes
The time will never come to slip away »
« This wave never breaks » you said
« This sun never sets again
These flowers will never fade »
« This world never stops » you said
« This wonder never leaves
The time will never come to say goodbye »
« This tide never turns » you said
« This night never falls again
These flowers will never die »
Never die
Never die
These flowers will never die
« This dream always ends » I said
« This feeling always goes
The time always comes to slip away »
« This wave always breaks » I said
« This sun always sets again
And these flowers will always fade »
« This world always stops » I said
« This wonder always leaves
The time always comes to say goodbye »
« This tide always turns » I said
« This night always falls again
And these flowers will always die »
Always die
Always die
These flowers will always die
Between you and me
It’s hard to ever really know
Who to trust
How to think
What to believe
Between me and you
It’s hard to ever really know
Who to choose
How to feel
What to do
Never fade
Never die
You give me flowers of love
Always fade
Always die
I let fall flowers of blood

Coming Up

Yeah it’s a snow white original mix and she’s fixing me
And the heartless thing she does is everything I love
It’s all I ever need
Yeah it’s a skin tight sensational strip and she’s tripping me
And the shameless way she turns…
Is all I ever dream
You ask me why I use it
It could be just a way to pass the time
I never really choose it
It’s just another play to lose…
My mind…
Yeah it’s a bright light promotional taste and she’s wasting me
And the tearless time she breaks is every time I ache
It’s all I ever feel
You ask me why I need it
It’s maybe just a way to pass the time
I never really mean it
It’s just another play to lose…
My mind…
Yeah it’s a big night emotional kill and she’s thrilling me
And the careless way she hurts…
Is all I ever scream
You ask me why I take it
It could be just a way to pass the time
I never really make it
It’s just another play to lose…
I’m coming up in the dark
And every part of me is bruised and raw and pained
I’m coming up in the dark
And every part of me is loose and sore and stained
And so I play it when I use it if I need it then I take it
And I play it all again…
And then I hold you… So cold you… Like I know you…
Yeah like I always know and like I always lose…
My mind… My mind…
Yeah I play it when I use it if I need it then I take it
And I play it all again… And then I hold you… So cold you…
Like I know you…
Yeah like I always know and like I always lose
Yeah like I always lose
Like I always lose…
My mind

Just Say Yes

Say this is it
Don’t say maybe
Don’t say no
Say this is it
Don’t say hold on
Don’t say slow
Say this is it
Don’t say next time
Don’t say when
Say this is it
Don’t say later
No don’t say then
Just say yes! Do it now!
Let yourself go!
Just leap! Don’t look!
Or you’ll never know
If you love it
You might really love it…
If you love it
You might really love it!
Oh come on and love it!
Yeah this is it
Don’t be cautious
Don’t think twice
This is it
Don’t play it safe
Don’t put it on ice
Yeah this is it
Don’t chew it over
No don’t kick it around
This is it
Don’t wait and see
Don’t try to work it out
Just say yes! Do it now!
Let yourself go!
Just leap! Don’t look!
Or you’ll never know…
If you love it
You might really love it…
If you love it
You might really love it!
So don’t tell me
It could all go wrong
No don’t tell me
It could all be a mess
Oh don’t tell me
It could all be a waste of time
Just say oui! Si! Sim! Da! Ja! Yow! Igen! Kylla!
Just say yes!

Spilt Milk

I don’t think I ever know if I ever really want it
Could be why I’m never sure if I ever really got it
And I guess it’s maybe easier not to think too much about it…
A house a car a family and friends
Yeah all it means to justify the ends

But sometimes… I wonder… In the back of my mind
Sometimes… I wonder… If I’m wasting all my time
Sometimes… I wonder… If I’m putting off my real life…
What I could’ve done
Where I could’ve been
When I should’ve gone
Why I should’ve seen
Who I would’ve loved
How I would’ve dreamed
And if it’s always
Always too late…

I don’t think I ever know that I ever really need it
Could be why I’m never sure that I ever really feel it
And I think it’s maybe easier to guess I really mean it…
A house! A car! A family and friends!
Yeah all it means to justify the ends
But sometimes… I wonder…

A girl! A smile! A holiday and sex!
Yeah all it takes to make sense of the rest

But sometimes… I wonder… In the back of my mind
Sometimes… I wonder… If I’m killing all my time
Sometimes… I wonder… If I’m giving up my real life…
What I could’ve done
Where I could’ve been
When I should’ve gone
Why I should’ve seen
Who I would’ve loved
How I would’ve dreamed
And if it’s always
Always too late…

And every day that I let slide
Is one day more I never try
To break the world
To make my fate
And with every day that I let go
It’s one day less I ever know
If it’s always
Always too late…

You’re So Happy (You Could Kill Me!)

So you don’t care about the beautiful people
But you’ll try one just the same
Yeah I know you can love it or leave it
You’re just playing a game…
Again
Oh you don’t care about the famously stupid
But you’ll live it for a while
Oh I know you’re only doing that irony thing
When you smile but don’t smile…
You don’t care about what anyone else is
Don’t care what they do or they say
You live your own life in your own time
And in your own dead indifferent way
Yeah… In your own time…
No you don’t care about the fabulous in things
But you’ll be one just in case
Yeah I know you can take it or leave it
You’re just having a taste…
Don’t give a fuck about what anyone else is
Don’t give a fuck what they do or they say
Yeah you are as you feel in your own time
And in your own dead indifferent way
And you will swear on any life but your own
That you’re happy! Happy how it all is…
At least it’s the way that you think I should think
That you think about any of this
About any of this… Yeah… And it’s so much more than you ever need…
And you will swear on any lie but your own
That you’re happy! Happy how it all is…
At least it’s the way that you think I should think
That you think about any of this…
You’re so… Happy yeah!
You’re so… Happy yeah!
You’re so… Happy yeah!
You’re so… Happy yeah!
So happy… You could kill me!

Cut Here

« So we meet again! » and I offer my hand
All dry and English slow
And you look at me and I understand
Yeah it’s a look I used to know
« Three long years… And your favourite man…
Is that any way to say hello? »
And you hold me…
Like you’ll never let me go
« Oh c’mon and have a drink with me
Sit down and talk awhile… «
« Oh I wish I could… And I will!
But now I just don’t have the time… «
And over my shoulder as I walk away
I see you give that look goodbye…
I still see that look in your eye…
So dizzy Mr Busy – too much rush to talk to Billy
All the silly frilly things have to first get done
In a minute – sometime soon – maybe next time – make it June
Until later… Doesn’t always come
It’s so hard to think
« It ends sometime
And this could be the last
I should really hear you sing again
And I should really watch you dance »
Because it’s hard to think
« I’ll never get another chance to hold you…
To hold you… «
But chilly Mr Dilly – too much rush to talk to Billy
All the tizzy fizzy idiot things must get done
In a second – just hang on – all in good time – won’t be long
Until later…
I should’ve stopped to think – I should’ve made the time
I could’ve had that drink – I could’ve talked awhile
I would’ve done it right – I would’ve moved us on
But I didn’t – now it’s all too late it’s over… Over…
And you’re gone…
I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you
I miss you I miss you so much
But how many times can I walk away
And wish « if only… «
How many times can I talk this way
And wish « if only… «
Keep on making the same mistake
Keep on aching the same heartbreak
I wish « if only… «
But « if only… «
Is a wish too late…

Signal To Noise

Nothing I do makes much sense
Say you don’t really get me anymore
I wonder if you ever did… If you ever did at all?
Nothing I want means a lot
Say you don’t understand me like before
I’m not sure if you ever did… If you ever did at all?
Nothing I think has a point
Say you don’t quite believe me anymore
I wonder if you ever did… If you ever did at all?
Gets hard to guess the best way through
The thing to do if none of this is true
I wish I knew how to undo
The doubt I hide inside
I grew in you…
The knot I hide inside I tied in you…
Nothing I am shows the way
Say you don’t seem to know me like before
I’m not sure if you ever did… If you ever did at all?
No nothing I do makes much sense
Say you don’t really get me anymore
I wonder if you ever did… If you ever did at all?
Gets hard to guess the best way through
The thing to do if none of this is true
I wish I knew how to undo
The knot I tied in you…
When more or less the yes and no
Is all for show it isn’t really so…
Look high and low where did we go?
You moved too fast or maybe I just moved too slow?
There’s so much noise…
All the signal seems to fade away
Too much noise…
Or could be this is how it always sounds
With nothing left?

Possession

The other one feeds on my hesitation
Grows inside with my trepidation
Buries his claws in my dislocation
Whispering me to lose control

I take a step and over my shoulder
His raw wide eyes shine wilder and bolder
And sore white thighs press closer and colder
Murmuring me to let him go

To let him go…

The other one thrives on my desperation
Fills me up with my toxication
Sinks his teeth in my deviation
Softening me to lose control

I hold my mouth but taste his breath
The hissing greedy awful scent
That snakes itself inside my head
Sickening me to let him go

To let him go…

I take a step and over my shoulder
His pain wide eyes shine wilder and bolder
And stain white thighs press closer and colder
Murdering me to let him go

I try to resist the bruise soft kiss
I twist to deny the blood hard bliss
But I always feel myself becoming his…

And the last thing I remember
« It isn’t me… It isn’t me… It isn’t me… «

But then it never is

Perfect Blue Sky

(Music by Tom Holkenborg aka Junkie XL)

Hand in hand we stand below a perfect blue sky
You and me alone again
Hand in hand we stand under the perfect blue sky
Waiting for the world…

It’s not as if we have that long
No endless time to dream
To fall in love
To ever get to know
A few short summer days
Is all the sweetest life we ever live
A fleeting glimpse
Before we go

Side by side we slide below a perfect blue sky
Not sure where and not sure when
Side by side we slide under the perfect blue sky
Waiting for the world…

We always knew this day would come
Too soon the perfect blue
To grey and black
And all at once is cold
The hopes we had to grow
To understand the reasons why
All gone
A million stories left untold

So hand in hand we stand below a perfect blue sky
You and me alone again
Hand in hand we stand under the perfect blue sky
Waiting for the world to end

All Of This

(Music by Blink 182)

With all of this I know now
Everything inside of my head
It all just goes to show how
Nothing I know changes me at all
Again I wait for this to change instead
To tear the world in two
Another night with her
But I’m always wanting you

You and me going nowhere
We know where we go
You and me knowing
Go there
We go where we know

With all of this I feel now
Everything inside of my heart
It all just seems to be how
Nothing I feel pulls at me at all
Again I wait for this to pull apart
To break my time in two
Another night with her
But I’m always wanting you

You and me going nowhere
We know where we go
You and me knowing
Go there
We go where we know

She’s all I need
She’s all I dream
She’s all i’m always wanting
She’s all I need
She’s all I dream
She’s all…
I’m always wanting
You
Yeah I’m always wanting you

With all of this I take now
Everything inside of my soul
It all just seems so fake how
Nothing I take fills me up…

(She’s all I need
She’s all I dream
She’s all i’m always wanting
She’s all I need
She’s all I dream
She’s all…
I’m always wanting
You)

…at all
Again I wait for this to fill the whole
To shake the sky in two
Another night with her
Another night with her…

But I’m always wanting you

Please

(Music by Paul Hartnoll)

Really sold on a routine
Really stuck
Really fixed on the 3 to 3
I was f… eeling bad
And all that I was wanted nothing to lose
Yeah all that I was wanted nothing…
« I wonder if you can help me » she said
« Lick my lips and smile…
I wonder if you can help me? »
And I close my eyes
« I wonder if you can help me » she said
« Be a boy on his knees?

You don’t want to hear me say it »

Out of sight for the shot
Out of luck
Out of focus and blurred away
I was f… alling down
And all that I was wanted nothing to choose
Yeah all that I was…
« I wonder if you can help me » she said
« Bang my head on the floor…
I wonder if you can help me? »
And I push it sore
« I wonder if you can help me » she said
« Be a girl I can tease?

Oh don’t ask me to say it »

You know you got me you know you got me
You know you got me dreaming you
You know you got me you know you got me
You know you got me feeling you
You know you got me you know you got me
You know you got me needing you
You know you got me you know you got me
You know you got me you know you got me
You know you got me wanting you
You know you got me you know you got me
You know you got me wanting you
You know you got me you know you got me
You know you got me wanting you
You know you got me you know you got me

When you never got to say it…

Truth Is

(Music by Chris Vrenna aka Tweaker)

« Oh baby you’re everything to me » she said
« Oh baby you’re the best thing that I ever had…
Oh baby you’re everything to me » she said
« Oh baby you’re the reason why i’m never bad…
Yeah baby you’re everything to me » she said

I’m telling lies again – she didn’t really care
I’m telling lies again – she did it everywhere
I’m telling lies again – she didn’t ever need
« Oh baby you’re everything
Everything to me… «

« Oh baby you’re so easy to believe » she said
« Oh baby you’re the one thing that I never had…
Oh baby you’re so easy to believe » she said
« Oh baby you’re the reason why i’m never sad…
Yeah baby you’re so easy to believe » she said

I’m telling lies again – she didn’t really come
I’m telling lies again – she did it every one
I’m telling lies again – she didn’t ever leave
« Oh baby you’re so easy
So easy to believe…
Yeah baby you’re everything to me » she said

I never remember if i’m him or her or me…
Do I wake up in or out of this?
As them or you or we?
I never remember who I wondered
When I was
If they ever were
The why or where
The how and what was lost…

Truth is – i’m never the same
Truth is – i’m never to blame
Truth is – i’m never in pain
Truth is i’m lying i’m lying i’m lying i’m lying…

Truth is i’m lying again

Want To Be Yours (aka Da Hype)

(Music by Vito Lucente aka Junior Jack)

I’m flying again!
It’s so good to pretend
I’m in love with the end
I just want to be yours

I’m falling away…
It’s so good to just play
I’m in love with today
I just want to be yours
Only want to be yours

I just want to be yours
Only want to be yours

You and me
All there ever is
You and me is anyone
You and me
Nothing more than this
You and me is everyone
Is everyone
Is everyone

I’m floating in you…
It’s so good to be two
I’m in love with the view
I just want to be yours

Only want to be yours

I’m flying again!
It’s so good to pretend
I’m in love with the end
I just want to be yours
Only want to be yours

I just want to be yours
Only want to be yours

Believe

(Music by Earl Slick)

The longer I stay the more I seem to lose
It’s an argument I use to take me away
And the closer I get the less of me there is
I remember it like this
To make me forget

Yeah the older I grow the more of me is gone
It’s a way of holding on to let myself go
And the louder I shout the less I really care
It’s the attitude I wear
To get myself out

The strange thing is I ever changed at all
Seemed so sure you would stay my girl
The strange thing is I ever changed at all
Wanted so much to believe
Maybe too much to believe…

But the harder I try the less I ever do
I convince myself it’s true to bare me a lie
And the sooner I start the more of me is wrong
It’s a kind of putting on
To tear me apart

Yeah the closer I get the less of me there is
I remember it like this to make me forget
And the longer I stay the more I seem to lose
It’s the argument I use
To take me away

The strange thing is you never change at all
Seemed so sure you would stay my girl
The strange thing is you never change at all
Wanted so much to believe
Maybe too much to believe…

The Dragon Hunters Song

TBD

Lost

I can’t find myself
I can’t find myself
I can’t find myself
I can’t find myself
In the head of this stranger in love
Holding on given up
To another under faded setting sun
And I wonder where I am… Could she run away with him?
So happy and so young…
And I stare
As I sing in the lost voice of a stranger in love
Out of time letting go
In another world that spins around for fun
And I wonder where I am… Could he ever ask her why?
So happy and so young… And I stare… But…

I can’t find myself
I can’t find myself
I can’t find myself
I can’t find myself
In the heart of this stranger in love
Given up holding on
To this other under faded setting sun
And i’m not sure where I am… Would he really turn away?
So happy and so young…
And I stare
As I play out the passion of a stranger in love
Letting go of the time
In this other world that spins around for one
And i’m not sure where I am… Would she know it was a lie?
So happy and so young… And I stare… But…

I can’t find myself
I can’t find myself
I can’t find myself
I can’t find myself
In the soul of this stranger in love
No control over one
To the other under faded setting sun
And I don’t know where I am… Should he beg her to forgive?
So happy and so young…
And I stare
As I live out the story of a stranger in love
Waking up going on
In the other world that spins around undone
And I don’t know where I am… Should she really say goodbye?
So happy and so young… And I stare… But…

I can’t find myself
I can’t find myself
I can’t find myself
I got lost in someone else…

Labyrinth

Say it’s the same sun spinning in the same sky
Say it’s the same stars streaming in the same night
Tell me it’s the same world whirling through the same space
Tell me it’s the same time tripping through the same day
So say it’s the same house and nothing in the house is changed
Yeah say it’s the same room and nothing in the room is strange
Oh tell me it’s the same boy burning in the same bed
Tell me it’s the same blood breaking in the same head
Say it’s the same taste taking down the same kiss
Say it’s the same you
Say it’s the same you and it’s always been like this
Say it’s the same you
Say it’s the same you and it always and forever is
Say it’s the same you
Say it’s the same you and it’s always been like this
Say it’s the same you
Say it’s the same you and it always and forever is
Say it’s the same you
Say it’s the same you

Yeah tell me it’s all the same
This is how it’s always been
But if nothing has changed… Then it must mean…

But the sun is cold – the sky is wrong
The stars are black – the night is gone
The world is still – the space is stopped
The time is out – the day is dropped
The house is dark – the room is scarred
The boy is stiff – the bed is hard
The blood is thick – the head is burst
The taste is dry – the kiss is thirst
And it’s not the same you
It’s not the same you
No it never was like this
It’s not the same you
It’s not the same you and it never really is
It’s not the same you
It’s not the same you
No it never was like this
It’s not the same you
It’s not the same you and it never really is
It’s not the same you
It’s not the same you

Oh it’s not the same
This isn’t how it’s always been
Everything has to have changed…

Or it’s me…

Before Three

Yeah yeah yeah!
The happiest day I ever knew
In a sea of gold down next to you
So blurred and tired under summer sun
You whispered dreams of a world to come…
We were so in love

In this sea of gold so young and tired
Under summer sun hard by your side
Whispering dreams down next to you…
We were so in love
The happiest day
Yeah the happiest day I knew

But summer sun and sea of gold
This perfect day oh so long ago
Whispering dreams so blurred and tired
We have to keep this day alive…

Whispered dreams so young and tired
It’s hard to hold this day inside

And the happiest night I ever had
Up next to you on silver sand
So scared and high under winter moon
You whispered dreams that would all come true…
We were so in love

Up next to you so fucked and high
Under winter moon it made me cry
Whispering dreams on silver sand…
We were so in love
The happiest night
Yeah the happiest night I had

But winter moon and silver sand
This perfect night in another land
Whispering dreams so scared and high
We have to keep this night alive

Whispered dreams so fucked and high
It’s hard to hold this night inside

Yeah and every summers sun I want again
And every winters moon I want the same
My happiest day and my happiest night
Always next to you… And held deep inside…
Keeps me alive…

The End Of The World

Go if you want to
I never try to stop you know there’s a reason
For all of this you’re feeling low
It’s not my call
You couldn’t ever love me more
You couldn’t love me more
You couldn’t love…

Me…
I don’t show much
It’s not that hard to hide you see in a moment
I can’t remember how to be all you wanted
I couldn’t ever love you more
I couldn’t love you more
I couldn’t love…

You want me to cry and play my part
I want you to sigh and fall apart
We want this like everyone else

Stay if you want to
I always wait to hear you say there’s a last kiss
For all the times you run this way
It’s not my fault
You couldn’t ever love me more
You couldn’t love me more
You couldn’t love me more

I couldn’t ever love you more
I couldn’t love you more
I couldn’t love…

You want me to lie not break your heart
I want you to fly not stop and start
We want us like everything else

Ooo-eee-ooo…
Ooo-eee-ooo…
Maybe we didn’t understand
It’s just the end of the world…
Ooo-eee-ooo…
Ooo-eee-ooo…
Maybe we didn’t understand
Not just a boy and a girl
It’s just the end of the end of the world!

Me… I don’t say much
It’s far too hard to make you see in a moment
I still forget just how to be all you wanted
I couldn’t ever love you more
I couldn’t love you more
I couldn’t love you more
I couldn’t love you more
I couldn’t love you more

Anniversary

A year ago today we stood
Above this same awakening world
I held you…
You never wanted me to know

Another year ago today
Before this same awakening world
I held you…
I never meant to let you go

There was a moment
There always is
When time stood still
And always was this…
One endless moment
You turn in pain
And I always let you go
Over and over again…

A year ago tonight we lay
Below this same remembering sky
I kissed you…
You never wanted me to know

Another year ago tonight
Behind this same remembering sky
I kissed you…
I never meant to let you go

Another moment
There always is
As time stands still
And always is this…
One endless moment
You tell me all
And I hold you and I kiss you
And I never let you go

I never let you go…

Us Or Them

There is no terror in my heart
Death is with us all
We suck him down with our first breath
And spit him out as we fall
There is no terror in my heart
No dread of the unknown
Desire for paradise to be…
We love this on our own

No I don’t want you anywhere near me
I don’t want you anywhere near me
Get your fucking world out of my head
I don’t want you anywhere near me
I don’t want you anywhere near me
Get your fucking world out of my head

I don’t want your ‘us or them’
No I don’t need your ‘us or them’
Oh I don’t want your ‘us or them’
I don’t need your ‘us or them…
You’re us or them… ‘

« I live in knowledge of real truth
And all my gods are great! »
The doleful cant of a bigot
Blinded by fear and hate
You live in knowledge of real truth?
Oh the biggest lie I heard
How sick in your mind and your soul
To be scared of my voice and my words

Oh you don’t want me anywhere near you
You don’t want me anywhere near you
Get my fucking head out of your world
You don’t want me anywhere near you
You don’t want me anywhere near you
Get my fucking head out of your world

I don’t want your ‘us or them’
No I don’t need your ‘us or them’
Oh I don’t want your ‘us or them’
I don’t need your ‘us or them’

As the only way this ever ends is ‘me’

alt.end

Yeah it’s a big bright beautiful world
Just the other side of the door
Six billion beautiful faces
But I saw them all before…
No this is not about running out on you
Not a case of right or wrong
It’s only that it’s over and done for me
It’s already been and gone

And I don’t want another go around – I don’t want to start again
No I don’t want another go around – I want this to be the end
I want this to be the end – I don’t want to start again
I want this to be the last thing we do
It for me and you…
For all my dreams came true

Yeah I know I should care if you come with me
Yeah and I should care if you go
Really should care about your love or your hate of me
Yeah I should care… But I don’t
And it’s not about giving up on you
It’s not a case of do or die
It’s simply that it’s over and out for me
There’s no more room inside

And I don’t want another run around – I don’t want to start again
No I don’t want another run around – I want this to be the end
I want this to be the end – I don’t want to start again
I want this to be the last thing we do
It for me and you…
For all my dreams came true

Yeah it’s a big bright beautiful world out there
Just the other side of this door
Six billion beautiful faces await
But I saw it all before…
No this is not about running out on you
Not a case of right or wrong
It’s only that it’s over and done for me
It’s already been and gone

For all my dreams came true

Truth Goodness And Beauty

I’ve been waiting for the lies to end
Holding for the bad to go
I’ve been hanging for the ugliness to change
Waiting for a world too true
Holding for a world too good
Hanging for a world too beautiful…

Wishing for a girl too true
Hoping for a girl too good
Hungry for a girl too beautiful…

« All I say is a lie » she sighs « nothing I say is true
And all I do is bad » she cries « nothing I do is good
And yeah all I am is ugly
Nothing I am is beautiful at all…
I don’t get this world »

Oh I don’t get this girl…

« So look… And you won’t see it
Listen… And you won’t hear it
Reach out… And you won’t hold it…
You can’t know it
But you can free it
You can’t name it
But you can be it… «

Wishing for a girl like you
Hoping for a girl like you
Hungry for a girl like you…

No not ‘like’ you…
You

(I Don’t Know What’s Going) On…

I don’t know what’s going on
I am so up close to you
I don’t know what’s going on

I don’t know what’s going on
I am so confused by you
I don’t know what’s going on

No don’t say anymore
To me at all
To me at all
No don’t say more
To me at all
To me at all

I am so in love with you…
With you… With you…
I am so in love with you…
With you… With you…

I don’t know what’s going on
I am so in deep with you
I don’t know what’s going on

I don’t know what’s going on
I am so disturbed by you
I don’t know what’s going on

No don’t say anymore
To me at all
To me at all
No don’t say more
To me at all
To me at all

I am so in love with…
You!

Taking Off

Tomorrow I can start again
With back to earth and carry on
The same as I did yesterday
Yeah I’ll pick it up once more
And morning I’ll be onto it
From square one start
And push it for a bit
Like I do everyday…
I’ll get it down for sure

But tonight I climb with you
Tonight
So high with you
Tonight I shine with you
Tonight
Oh i’m so alive with you

Tomorrow I’ll begin anew
With heavy head to hold it
As I do it all like yesterday
Yeah I’ll break it out again
And morning I’ll be there in time
For clock back move
And make it for a while
To get through everyday…
I’ll roll it out the same

But tonight I climb with you
Tonight
So high with you
Tonight I shine with you
Tonight i’m so alive…

With you it’s always here and never there
With you it’s always here and never where
With you it’s always here and never how
With you it’s always here and always now

Yeah tomorrow I will start again
With back to earth and carry on
The same as I did yesterday
Yeah I’ll pick it up once more
And morning I’ll be onto it
From square one start and « bit a for it push »
Like I do everyday…
I’ll get it down for sure

But tonight I climb with you
Tonight
So high with you
Tonight I shine with you
Tonight

Never

She wants so much to please me she always does it right
She wants so much to please me all day and every night

She doesn’t read the stars
She has no time for fate
She doesn’t see the signs
She has no time to wait

She is trying to be the one for me
Trying to be enough for me
She is trying to be the one for me
Trying to be in touch
She is trying to be the one for me
Trying to be enough for me
She is trying to be the one for me
Trying to be in love

I want so much to need her I never turn away
I want so much to need her all night and every day

I never read the stars
I have no time for fate
I never see the signs
I have no time to wait

I am trying to be the one for her
Trying to be enough for her
I am trying to be the one for her
Trying to be in touch
I am trying to be the one for her
Trying to be enough for her
I am trying to be the one for her
Trying to be in love

We want so much to have this we hold each other tight
Yeah we want so much to have this always and every time

But we don’t need to read the stars
We don’t need the time for fate
We don’t need to see the signs
To know it’s all too late

She will never be the one for me
She will never be enough
She will never be the one for me
We will never be in touch
I will never be the one for her
I will never be enough
I will never be the one for her
We will never be in love

We will never be in love
We will never be
In love

The Promise

How time will heal
Make me forget
You promised me
Time will heal
Make me forget
You promised me
Love will save us all and time will heal
You promised me…

How love will save
Make me forget
You promised me
Love will save
Make me forget
You promised me
Time will heal us all and love will save
You promised me…

I trusted you
I wanted your words
Believed in you
I needed your words
Time will heal
Make me forget
And love will save us all

You promised me another wish
Another way
You promised me another dream
Another day
You promised me another time
You promised me another life

You promised me…

So I swallowed the shame and I waited
I buried the blame and I waited
Choked back years of memories
I pushed down the pain and I waited
Trying to forget…

You promised me another wish
Another way
You promised me another dream
Another day
You promised me another time
You promised me…
Another lie

Oh you promised me…
And I waited… And I waited… And I waited…

And i’m still waiting…

This Morning

Nothing left to feel
Nothing more to do
Nothing left to give
Nothing more in you
Nothing else to have or hold
Nothing left but time to go…

Years go by…
We didn’t really say that much at all
And months just fly…
We didn’t ever really touch at all
Weeks always run down…
We didn’t really get that close at all
And days fall out…
We didn’t ever really know at all

And then we’re here in a room
Too clean and too bright
She stares at you for an hour
You stare into the light
For one last hour in the room
So mean and so white
I stare at her in this room
As she stares into the night…

Nothing left to feel
Nothing more to do
Nothing left to ask
Nothing more of you
Nothing else to share or show
Nothing left but time to go…

In his eyes as we turned…
No eternity of life
In his eyes as we turned…
No infinity of why
In his eyes as we turned…
No beautiful goodbye
In his eyes as we turned…
Nothing but tears…

The dawn call was broken, short, disconnected, far away…
I couldn’t understand too much of what was being said…
A matter of minutes, peacefully, so sorry…
I had to think to breathe, my heart bursting in my head…
We moved in silence through a slowly waking world of pale grey rain…
And as we drove, a strange sun split the sky…
In that moment I knew nothing would ever be the same again…

The days fall out…
The weeks always run down
The months just fly…
The years go by

And then we’re here in a room
Too clean and too bright
I stare at you for an hour
You stare into the light
For one last hour in the room
So mean and so white
You stare at me in this room…
As I stare into the night

Nothing left to feel
Nothing more to do
Nothing left to take
Nothing more from you
Nothing else to need or know
There’s nothing left at all but time to go…

Fake

I can’t fly
I never really could
I don’t feel you ever understood at all
No I can’t fly
I never really could
I just throw my arms out as I fall…

Always say you know me
But you don’t know at all
Only want to hold me
But i’m not here to hold
Always say you know me
But you don’t know at all
Only want to show me
But I’m not yours to show
Oh no…

I don’t dream
I never really did
Don’t believe you ever took this in too good
No I don’t dream
I never really did
I just wake and make up as I should…

No… I don’t dream
No… I don’t dream
No… I don’t dream…

Oh I won’t see
I never really would
I don’t sense you ever realized it right
No I won’t see
I never really would
I just roll my eyes up out of sight…

I can’t ever come back if I never go
I don’t ever explain if I never know
I won’t ever take it if I never give

And if I never live…

Why Can’t I Be Me?

Uh-huh… Doo doo doo…
I try so hard to be just for you
Careful what I want to know and what I do
Make my second nature all you ever see
You’re sure it’s the only way to be

Never go too far or ever stay too late
Worry what I think about and what I say
Make this second nature all I ever show
You’re sure it’s the only one to know
You’re sure it’s the only way to go

But why can’t I…
Why can’t I believe?

I don’t want to break it down with you
When and if I ever did is never who
Take my second nature all you ever need
You’re sure it’s the only way to feel

Always run it back before I really should
Bit lip sorry every time to make it good
Take this second nature all I ever play
You’re sure it’s the only one to stay
You’re sure it’s the only way…

But why can’t I…
Why can’t I…
Why can’t I…
Why can’t I…
Why?
Why?

Why can’t I be me?
Simply inelegant…

Your God Is Fear

Your god is fear
That all you are is all there is
Your god is fear
Of nothing more than all of this
Your god is fear
Of been and gone
In the blink of an eye
Fear of ever breathing it
Fear of ever leaving it
Fear of ever changing forever for now

Your god is fear
Your god is fear
Your god is fear

Your god is fear
That all you are is all there is
Your god is fear
Of nothing more than all of this
Your god is fear
Of been and gone
In the blink of an eye
Fear of ever choosing it
Fear of ever losing it
Fear of ever playing forever for now

Your god is fear
Your god is fear
Your god is fear

Just for a moment
Feel it inside
Feel it alive
Feel your desire
Feel it catch fire
Feel it inspire
Oh know all you are
Is all there is
Nothing ever more
Than any of this
Open your mind
Step out of time
Let yourself die

And your god is…
Your god is…

You’re god

Going Nowhere

I’m going nowhere
Don’t look so scared
I’m going nowhere
Don’t look…

So tell me that you love me again
Tell me that you care
Oh tell me that you love me again

Yeah i’m going nowhere
Don’t look so scared
I’m going nowhere…

Could be
Could be
Could be…

I’m already there?